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heyy,

just wanted to show you something that i wrote the other day…not sure if its all that great, but its what my heart felt like saying;

I don’t go a day without thinking about you. You are always on my mind. I am here wanting you, needing you. I see your face and that alone makes my day. Then, I hear you amazing voice and I’m just in awe. When you smile, I smile because you just make me happy. Baby, you’ll never know how much I love you, cause’ it’s more than you could ever imagine.

please give me some feedback! (:

always,

Haili Jean

haili.jean. (:

holaa,

hope everyone’s lives are going great. (: i know mine is!

so, this weekend, i stayed at my moms house with her and my dad so that on saturday night we went to a haunted corn maze. it was a pretty intense maze. and there were a lot of scary dudes that popped outta the corn. it was pretty scary haha. and my mom made me walk on the outside and i ended up being on the side that most of the dudes came out on. but, it was fun. (:

yesterday, sunday, me and some of my youth group went down to ohio to check out and meet the people at the church that we’re going on our missions trip to this summer. it was pretty fun, and it was interesting because i was the only girl who came from our youth group, other than my youth pastors wife and their daughter. although a lot of girls say its horrible to go as the only girl and yada yada yada, its really not that bad. hah. i didnt mind at all, and i actually probably had more fun than i would have if the girls came. well, maybe just some of the girls. but that is probably because im good friends with a lot of the guys. (: well, anyway that was a lot of fun. we went bowling and i beat my friend casey in one of the games, i was pretty proud of my self. (: hehe.

well, i should probably go for now.

oh! happy birthday to my amazingly GREAT friend Austin. (: haha. (he’s actually by boyfriend:)

always,

haili.jean. <3 (:

this little thing called Happiness

Hey!

How are all my blog lookers doing?  I hope you’re all good. (:

I’m doing pretty great myself. You know how i posted something about boy drama awhile ago? Well, it’s all good now. I am waaay over that guy, the wrong one, and I am with a guy I have known my whole life.

Well, we have been dating for almost three months now and I am really happy. He makes me smile, laugh and just feel good. I haven’t felt this good about a guy before him.

We hung out a couple days ago, over by the church just talking by a tree and we made a heart out of stick. <3 haha it was his idea. then, last night, he came over to my aunts house, where im staying, and we watched his favorite movie, clockstoppers, and then he hung out for awhile. it was really fun for me. (:

Well, enough about him.

School is going okay. Im an 8th grader now, and school is just a mite harder than last year. I’m in algebra 1 which is a 9th grade class, and its pretty hard. But, I’m doing okay with it i suppose. I am in a lot of my friend’s classes, we have five together and there are six altogether and that is pretty cool.

Youth group is always fun, we went on a retreat last weekend and it was interestingly eye-opening. It was called Tropical Getaway and we were put into a scenario where we were captured by Muslim Terrorists and they took us to a campsite where there was a tarp hanging from a tree and that was our shelter. There was also a fire pit for us to cook whatever food they gave us and to keep warm, because it was freezing. It was fun in a way, but we all suffered a little. But it was all to find out who we really were, and not just who were were outside. Because, the terrorists did anything they could to frustrate us and drive us crazy so that we could find out what was in our hearts. they were trying to break us to see what our reactions would be. To find out if we were “good trees or bad trees”. Very interesting.

Well, thats all for now folks.

always, Haili

beautiful girl

hey

i went to a little concert earlier this week at a baptist youth camp. birdsong, a band of one family from tennesee. they were pretty good, at i had fun.

i saw this girl. she was pretty and it looked like she was there with some guy friends of hers. but, i dont think she payed any attention to the lyrics of the songs or when the guy spoke up front about something in the bible. all this girl did was talk to her guy friends…

i feel bad for this girl. she doesnt realize what she is missing. i heard her say something…something about another girl. it wasnt very nice. she doesnt know that everyone is beautiful, because everyone is created in the image of God. she thinks that some girls are better looking than others, and she is wrong. everyones equal…so sweetie, get over yourself

and anyone who ever thinks that other girls are better looking than them, your beautiful so stop being so hard on yourself

i know exactly how you feel. i used to be so insecure about my looks, thats all i thought about sometimes. but then, some of my friends told me that im beautiful. my youth pastor told me that i was created in Gods image, that i am beautiful no matter what i think. God thinks im beautiful and thats all that matters…

always,

haili

boy drama

hey,

so i been going through this stuff called boy drama. yeah that stuff sucks if you didn’t know.

there is this guy who i have liked for awhile and we dated a couple months ago then we broke up and he pretty much has hated me ever since. but a couple weeks ago he decided he liked me again and we started texting and we started going out again sunday. but then tuesday, he broke up with me and said that he was still hurting from his last girlfriend but that when he was ready, he wanted to go out with me. personally, i think that is an extremely lame excuse. well, the next day, his little brother told me that he was texting his ex again. honestly, that about killed me, which was kind of hard since i had already cried my eyes out. well i texted him later asking him what was up with that and he said his little brother was lying. i didn’t know who to believe, bc his lil bro is practically in love with me so i don’t think he would lie to me but the guy promised…i still don’t know who to believe and now i cant decide if i want to ever get back with him…

well i still really like him and cant get him out of my head…ive heard this quote thingy: “never give up on someone you cant go a day without thinkging about” well i havent gone a day when i havent thought about him….

so now i dont know what to do…give up or keep fighting.

i dont even know if he cares whether ill want to go out with him or not. he isnt ready yet so ill find out…

well if anybody has any advice, its welcomed : )

ttyl haili

SUMMER :D

heyy its comin !!

summer is almost here:D im so excited…my birthday is in the summer…in two days actually imma be 14!! hehe.

so my summer is busy busy busy. ive got lotsa stuff goin on. camping, swimming, vacation bible school n moree. im so excited, its gonna be soo fun.

later in june im goin to michigan adventures with my youth group, its gonna be awesome bc i love michigan adventures! its wayys better than cedar point btw haha.

aaand tomorrow im goin to the beach with my sister and cousins and maybe a couple other friends. we is gonna go have some funn in the sunn. ill take some pics

my last day of school is on my birthday! ha its amazing, ppl are gonna be wishin me happy bday and ive never had my birthday on a school day before! haha new stufff.

well imma go now. type to ya later! wish me a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

haili : )

Gods girl

hi

i think, i dream, i hope to be that girl that God wants me to be. im not here to please, to be what other ppl want me to be. i want to make my Lord happy. i want to do the right thing. if only it were easy…i think all day long and dream many times a day. i wish i could escape this crazy world and join that dream but that never happens. many times i have wished God could just give me answers, just push it in front of my face. he wants me to figure it out, with his help ofcourse, just not the way i have in mind. as i try to be that girl, Gods girl, i fail at times but there are also times when i succeed at doing something he would want me to do. i may not be perfect, im no beauty and i make mistakes, but im Gods daughter and im trying to be a good one and thats all that really matters…

[i wrote this april 15 at night on my ipod]

haili

most embarrassing moment ever :-/

hey guess what?

i embarrassed myself the other day, extreme embarrassment.

okay so i am in track and i was at one of my meets. i was at the starting line, getting ready to run my 70m dash and the guy did the “ready, set, go” thing and he shot the gun, twice…

did you know that when they shoot the gun twice, it means dont go? weeelll i didnt know that, soo i ran, leaving everyone but one girl from the other team at the starting line. me n the other girl ran the whole way and i beat her buuutt then i turned around, happy about being first and all the other girls were still at the starting line.

im sure my face turned red, and i was so embarrased i just laughed. the nervous kinda laugh. one of the guys at the finish line said to me, “bet it felt good while it lasted.” i just laughed and said “yeah, actually, it did.” they laughed.

then we walked back to the starting line, ran the actual race and i got fourth..not too bad, actualy the best ive gotten ha.

after my race, everyone kept tellin me , “that was hilarious, haili” haha. ppl are never gonna let me forget that!

ppl also told me it was cute aha

now i have something to tell when ppl ask me what my most embarrassing moment is hahaha

haili

moms day <3

happy almost moms day!

so moms day is on sunday, and made my mom a present in art i bought a bad and decorated it with faberic paint and then i made a card with water colors and THEN i bought her rolos and carmellos i hope she likes it!

my mom is an amazing, beautiful, loving, caring, funny, fun, cool, awesome, gorgeous, kind, and likable lady. i love her so much! she deserves an awesome day  that she will never forget. she is irreplacable, you will never find another like her.

so happy she is my mom love you <3

haili

lifee

hey,

alot of ppl in my life are amazing, they are there for me and care  about me. but some are actors. they act like they care, they tell you they love you but then they turn on you and tell you they hate you. crazy.

ah spring break was awesome, but i cant wait for SUMMER!

i love staying up late and sleeping in..but i only get that on weekends. thas partially why i look forward to summer, other reasons are camping, warmness, no school, and spending time with friends(: cant wait.

im in track this year, i might have told you that but i dont remember. anyway, i have asthma which makes running harder, i run outta breath uber fast but i deal. im a sprinter and im kinda good at it, but i found out that most ppl in track are better:P today, we had practice at the high school and we got to try out the field events. pole vault is fun! ha i was really scared to try it but i did and it was pretty sweeet. haha. i think i might do that this year. i was gonna do shot put but i tried it and do NOT like it. i made some new friends in track, theys mostly 6th graders ha. hannah, meg, aubrey, elianna, umm ryan, cole, and the hewits kinda. mostly brandon. ha. hes nice. annnyyway, 8th graders kenzie, chloe and aurora are pretty sweeet too(: also sarah but i already knew her, we’s bus buddies.

so school is pretty boring. yeah, im gettin kinda good grades but i really kinda hate school. i dont have many close friends there so i dont really have that to look forward to. i fall asleep in some of my classes sometimes which isnt good but i cant help it! science especially, mr seekamp is soo boring. he talks to no end…ehhh.

this week at youth group we played one of my fav games, ultimate frisbee, outside! i was so excited. but bc of track meets ima have to miss youth group most of the time now:( ohh well.

i really wanna go swimmming, i think it sounds fun and coool. haha. i even got a bathing suit already! the first one i tried on fit me good, which is crazy bc last year we went thru like 20 suits before finding one that i liked and looked okay.

well ima go lay down now. im uber tired.

merry april 16th to all and to all a good night!

night, haili